So close, yet so far

Hey, how have you been? Are you aware how much I miss you? And it hurts how I can’t tell you how I feel as often as I need to. Because I seldom get response. Or if you do, you sound like you don’t wanna say it. I’m hesitant to tell you often, that I love you very much. Because I sometimes feel that you’re sick and tired of hearing that anymore. You don’t seem happy anymore, knowing that I love you this much. It’s so ironic. How you seem so lively talking to me before. But now, we barely talk. Haven’t even received a text message from you since you came back. When before, I receive messages like every now and then. Updating me of how things have been on your end, what you’re doing. But now, it’s starting to go the other way.

Now, things have changed. Though I feel you are so true to the things you told me. That you love me and all. Yet, I sometimes feel that you’re so far away. Can hardly comprehend. Is it just my paranoia? Am I just imagining things?

I hope things would go back to the way it was before. Those days when we were just starting off. Pulling things off so we could be together was never easy even from the start. Even until now. Yet we fought so hard, we were one. But now, we still fight so we can be together. And yet sometimes I feel like we are not doing it as a team.
*sigh*

No matter what will become of us, no matter how things would turn out. I want you to know, that I will always love you.

~ by nomadameisele on July 13, 2007.