Off me, please!
I need a real good bang in the head. These thoughts- they need to go away. They’re not making things any better. If I ever slam my head on the wall, will these stupid thoughts go away? I seem to be needing selective amnesia. Just so these thoughts go away. Why can’t I just get them off my head? They follow me. Anywhere, no matter what I do… No! They don’t follow me! They’re in me. Entirely all over me. When I’m at work it’s like working in between entertaining these thoughts. It’s so annoying. When I eat, shower, watch TV, sleep… Even when I’m at a paintball or badminton game. I’ve done things I possibly can just to divert my attention. For a moment it’d work. Then something would came and leads me back to it. OMG! This has got to stop. You stupid thought! Let me just go, please. Let me just liberate myself from you. I’m stuck in here… Well, yeah. Sometimes they do make me smile. Especially when it’s the happy ones. But I shouldn’t be thinking of them anymore. Happy or sad, they just have to let me go. Can you tell them, please? I’m quite sure that these thoughts are not so bothered about me. I’m just so bothered with them, they get me all so confused. They make me scared with a lot of things. It can’t be just like this for the rest of my life, right? (as if it’s life i’m living).. 
… Gosh! If I only knew this is the price of aiming to be happy. Now I know, can’t afford the price.
Could it be possible to have a brain transplant? They’re just in the memory, right? So if I get brain transplant they go away with my brain.
*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
I think I need an overhaul, reformat, upgrade, debug. etc… Everything! Just to clear my thoughts. Free my thoughts from these trash. Oh my! Help your self. Grrr!
Sometimes, I think that it pays great to know nothing. To just know a little, to be dumb. In that way, you would get damaged only a bit.
what kinds of thought could that be? *grins*
grrr! you wouldn’t want to think about it. disturbing